AJ and Alivia riding in what Chris calls the "Chuck Wagon"(yes they are still in their jammies)
As I sit here on Monday morning and reflect about the past year, it is crazy to me that our twins will be 1 years old in less than 2 weeks. It is a true miracle that Chris and I have survived. The road is still very hard at times, but it is so much fun. It really seems like yesterday that I was put on bed rest (ripped out of my classroom at 10:00 am) with no warning. Of course I did not listen very well to my Dr. I still did as I normally do without going to work. I always look back and think to myself that if I did not go to Target, drank that Dr. Pepper, eaten a spicy taco from Jack in the Box, gone to Chris' parents house, would I have had them the next day? My mom tells me not to dwell on that because they are here and there is nothing to I can do to change it. And I would not change anything about the birth of our twins. Well maybe one thing would be that I would have had the chance to hold them right away, but they were whisked away to the NICU immediately. That experience we went through in the NICU is one of strength. It has made me a strong person. And if you know me you know that I was a very shy, weak girl. I am probably not giving myself enough credit, but I know I am stronger because of our experience.
I was telling a friend the other day that I know I spent 6 weeks trying to get out of the NICU but there are times I miss that place. Not because of the help (well maybe a little) but the companionship of other mothers and fathers going through the same thing. I tell people all of the time that being in the NICU is different and you would not understand unless you have been through it or work with those babies and families. The nurses there were wonderful. They make you feel good about what is going on. They are there to comfort you when you get down. I did not have a bad experience. Would I do it again...NO! But I would not change a thing about my experience.
I plan on baking some cookies for the nurses up there in honor of the twins 1st birthday. They made it possible for me to be the best mom I could be. They played a major role in the beginning of their lives. So I want to thank them for the work they did in the beginning of their lives.
Well 2 weeks to go until the big day. We are just having a small get together for their day nothing to overwhelming but enough to be memorable I guess for me!! I am really excited.
Until then this Friday we meet with the speech therapist, OT, PT, at Baylor Grapevine. I am really looking forward to their appointment. I remember the last time we went they had just started them on solid food and told me the next time I saw them that they should be crawling....I said yeah right!!! But they are they are such strong little babies!! I am so proud of them. I look forward to their next goal.
Well as always I promise to post more, but it seems I never have the time.
Love to all,
Kristen
